I remember the sound of my heart hitting the floor when we were told our son Roan had a brain tumour. I remember drawing in a breath, closing my eyes and thinking “Please God, help me through this.” On the 23rd of May 2011, Roan was diagnosed with an untreatable, inoperable tumour and the course of our lives took a turn that no parent would plan, expect or consider. As much as I wanted to sign out and say, “no thanks, let’s go back to the way things were yesterday”, we were going to have to face up to what the future held.
Over the weeks that followed, we held on to each other, stayed close and prayed for strength. Our beautiful boy passed away at home on the 4th of September 2011. He was 5 years old.
Accepting God’s will can be difficult, especially when the miracle you are praying for is not forthcoming, but that’s why it’s called faith. We chose to give thanks for every day we had with Roan, not to look at how few days were left. We chose to allow God to make the decisions that needed to be made, and He answered prayers before we’d even uttered them. Some might ask, “How could God let this happen?”, but the way we see it is that it happened and God brought us through it. He worked through people to support us; He gave us more time with Roan than we’d initially been told and He continues to bless us every day.
We learnt that faith is about choosing God – every time. Choosing to listen to God and to accept God’s will. Choosing to read God’s word and choosing to pray. When you act on this, God is waiting for you, to embrace you and see you through the darkest hours of your life. He did for us, and continues to every day. For Roan’s story visit www.caringbridge.org/visit/roandales